Published:
June 2024

Issue:
Vol.19, No.1

Word count:
6,260

About the author

  • MCAT, GradDipCAT, BNurs, BA (Visual Arts), AThR, RN

    Michaela obtained her MA in creative arts therapies from Murdoch University, Perth WA. She is an accredited creative arts therapist and a professional member registered with ANZACATA. For the past 28 years she has held a variety of professional positions in the public and private health sector including mental health nursing and visual artist and is currently employed as a creative arts therapist in a forensic hospital. She is a practising visual artist and utilises her skills and experience in assisting forensic patients to explore the various creative processes to facilitate self-improvement, growth and self-expression. Michaela has a personal interest in cancer and is keen to explore further the connection and impact that creative art therapies and art has on one’s physical, mental and emotional health.

This work is published in JoCAT and licensed under a CC BY-NC-SA-4.0 license.

  • Psaila-Savona, M. (2024). An art-based research inquiry: The disruptive effect of a cancer diagnosis on one’s quality of life. JoCAT, 19(1). https://www.jocat-online.org/a-24-psailasavona

An art-based research inquiry: The disruptive effect of a cancer diagnosis on one’s quality of life

Michaela Psaila-Savona

Abstract 

This paper describes a single-case-study arts-based research inquiry into the disruptive effect of a cancer diagnosis on a female cancer survivor, with an emphasis on post-treatment living. The study methodology involved the integration of artmaking with an autoethnographic stance for both participant and researcher during three interviews. Research design was guided by the researcher’s own lived experience as a cancer survivor and of the prolonged impact of cancer on quality of life. Data was collected from three one-hour in-person interviews, which were video and audio recorded. Using thematic analysis, interviews and artworks were transcribed and coded, with two significant themes identified: Information and Change. Information delivery and unresolved past traumas were both observed to have an enduring negative influence on a cancer survivor’s mental health and, consequently, their quality of life. Effective information delivery, from healthcare providers at diagnosis, during treatment and post-treatment, was linked to better mental health outcomes, survivor psychological stability, and recovery. Art-based research methods enabled the participant and researcher to identify their sources of unresolved trauma resulting from diagnosis and treatment. Subsequently, this provided motivation to commit to an improved future.

Keywords

Art therapy, art-based research, autoethnography, lived experience, cancer diagnosis, quality of life

Introduction

I embarked on this research journey filled with trepidation, as art-based research (ABR) was foreign to me. Weighed down by preconceived ideas of what research entailed, I feared creative expression would be suppressed by the rigid structure of scientific research. To resolve this dilemma, I turned to books published by Shaun McNiff (2013) and Patricia Leavy (2018), with their words providing encouragement and guidance. McNiff (2013) notes that ABR uses artistic expression as a primary mode of enquiry to understand and express individuals’ experiences. Furthermore, having an art background, I understood that art can be used to promote healthy expression, and challenge and highlight new ways of thinking (Leavy, 2020). Insights from the ABR literature gave me the confidence to write authentically and to use my lived experience of artistic expression as a springboard for this research (Leavy, 2018).

As both an artist and creative arts therapist, following the ABR approach enabled the creation of a platform where a participant’s and my lived experiences of cancer could be voiced and studied. Hopefully, by communicating such experiences, the reader may ultimately gain knowledge about the importance of ABR and art therapy practices in the long-term treatment of cancer patients (Kapitan, 2010; Link, 2013). These practices may assist non-verbal expression to explore, find insight and make meaning of individuals’ lived experiences (Leavy, 2020).

Cancer refers to any cancerous disease that occurs at any stage during a person’s lifetime, affecting any part of the body (Geue et al., 2010), and is considered a disruptive event with long-term implications on quality of life (Gour & Chaudhary, 2023; Hubbard et al., 2010). For this study, quality of life is defined as “the value assigned to duration of life as modified by the impairments, functional states, perceptions and social opportunities that are influenced by disease, injury, treatment or policy” (Patrick & Erickson, 1993, p.22).

The beginning: A snippet of my cancer experience

I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer at 24 years of age, which required a partial thyroidectomy and lifelong medication. When I was 34 years old, my cancer re-emerged, metastasising to the rest of my thyroid, parathyroids and lymph glands in my neck. After further surgery and a year of treatment, I commenced ongoing check-ups. These occurred religiously every six to 12 months, with in-depth investigations conducted every three to five years. At the time of my second surgery, I became aware that both my father (a doctor) and my surgeon had previously taken a paternalistic stance and withheld information regarding the seriousness of my initial diagnosis. At 44 years old, during one of the in-depth investigations, I was informed by a newly appointed registrar that I had terminal thyroid cancer. After two days of anguish and fear, I was able to contact my specialist, who clarified that the information I had received was incorrect and was meant for someone else. To this day, I still think about the trauma this other person would have experienced upon receiving their tragic diagnosis.

Ten years on, and after years of personal therapy, I can now address the enduring impact these disruptive events have had on my life. They include mistrust of medical professionals, physical changes brought on by high pharmaceutical doses resulting in further medical conditions, anxiety, depression, fear, pain, achievement pressures, a sense of urgency and a foreshortened future, and questioning of my religious beliefs. These experiences were the catalysts for my research study.

Throughout the past 40 years, I have used creativity to deal with the impacts of my diagnoses, as words alone have failed to express how I feel inside. My art practice history has included journaling, painting, sewing and collage, which have given a visual account of how living through these experiences can feel (Bochner & Ellis, 2016). This practice has assisted me to understand issues about myself, my thoughts, my relationships, and my existence in the world.

My cancer experience led me to question whether other women had used art as therapy and how this had impacted their mental health in their post-diagnosis life. Furthermore, I wanted to identify whether there were other commonalities observable between my own experience and the participant’s. I commenced my exploration of current literature to find answers to my questions.

Reviewing current literature

Cancer is a disease that has had an impact on the life of most Australians. By the age of 85, one in two Australian women will have had a cancer diagnosis, with 70% of these women surviving five years or longer post-diagnosis (Cancer Council, 2021). Although cancer survival rates have significantly improved, survivors still experience long-term mental and physical health problems that impact their quality of life (Fenner et al., 2024; National Cancer Institute, 2022; Ross et al., 2022). Furthermore, the potential for cancer recurrence remains a constant threat for survivors, further contributing to their decline in quality of life (National Cancer Institute, 2022; Ross et al., 2022). The disruptions to quality of life have been observed to impact cancer survivors for, on average, five years following cessation of treatment (Green & Young, 2015; Hubbard et al., 2010; Reynolds & Prior, 2006; Salander et al., 2011).

To explore the authentic experiences of other cancer survivors, I sought articles written from an autoethnographic ABR stance, authored by healthcare professionals or artists who are cancer survivors. Although results were limited, a collection of sources was identified (Chansky, 2007; Petrone, 2004; Sibbett, 2005; Wadeson, 2011). In all the literature found, art was used to regain control and personal identity during the author’s cancer journey. For Wadeson (2011), art therapy was an outlet in which she turned to after experiencing helplessness in her cancer journey:

For me, I needed to do something, to be active to oppose my resignation to the tortures imposed upon me. I needed to assert my personhood as I passively underwent frightening, debilitating, and humiliating procedures. Writing and making art were my saviours in times of trouble or pain in the past, so it was only natural for me to turn to them to help me through the cancer challenge to my life. (p.7)

This sentiment was also reflected in Petrone’s (2004) commentary: “this illness has invaded my life, knocked me off balance and made me feel out of control … But I still feel a need to direct my life, to feel this life of mine is still mine” (p. 65). Petrone (2004) turned to art to help communicate his internal sufferings to those around him, “but most of all I need to know that you know that within my body there is me” (p.65). Due to medical professionals being hyper-focused on killing cancer cells, survivors report feeling dehumanised, with the conventional medical system often neglecting their psychosocial needs (Chansky, 2007; Hart, 2010). Consequently, there is a call for healthcare professionals to utilise a more holistic approach, addressing the individual’s body, mind and spirit, in their practice (Winlaw, 2023). Using this approach may lead to improvements in the long-term mental and physical health of cancer survivors. A second theme observed in ABR literature is the frequency of miscommunication between health professionals and patients, thus highlighting the importance of establishing trusting relationships in a safe environment (Chansky, 2007; Furzer et al., 2014; Gilbert et al., 2016; Sibbett, 2005).

Given cancer significantly disrupts the lives of cancer patients, providing them with the tools to process and overcome the trauma of a cancer diagnosis is imperative to their long-term health (Oster et al., 2006; Rieger et al., 2023; Wood et al., 2011). Studies have shown that art and art therapy can be highly beneficial to cancer patients, as they enable them to experience healing, reframing, meaning, and reaffirmation of self (Gilbert et al., 2016; Sabo & Thibeault, 2011; Thomson, 2019). The benefits of art therapy include improved mental health and better quality of life, with some patients also experiencing reductions in their cancer symptoms (Geue et al., 2010; Hertrampf & Wärja, 2017; Nainis et al., 2006; Regev & Cohen-Yatziv, 2018; Zhou et al., 2023). Cheng et al. (2021) found that women with breast and gynaecological cancers who received art therapy had reduced depression levels and an improved quality of life. Furthermore, in women with breast cancer, a reduction in their pain, fatigue and anxiety was also observed. Similar findings were reported by Kievisiene et al. (2020) and Jiang et al. (2020), with art therapy found to significantly reduce anxiety, depression and fatigue symptoms, while also significantly improving the cancer patient’s quality of life. Age has been observed to impact art therapy efficacy, with cancer patients older than 55 years having more successful results in the reduction of depression and anxiety (Xu et al., 2020). It is important to also understand that not all cancer patients are receptive to art therapy. In Nainis et al. (2006), 6% of participants said art therapy had no effect, with 4% saying that they did not like their completed artwork. Given the emotionally vulnerable state of cancer patients, incidents which trigger buried feelings of insecurity may nullify any benefits gained from art therapy (Nainis, 2008). Thus, it is important for art therapists to establish a safe environment which supports the choices and needs of each patient (Nainis et al., 2006, Nainis, 2008).

To advise cancer patients about art therapy, medical professionals must understand that there is a difference between using art for therapeutic purposes and art therapy, as they provide different goals and outcomes for cancer patients (Chandler, 2020; de Witte et al., 2021). Art-making is inherently an expressive process, with individuals who use art for therapy finding it promotes self-esteem and relaxation (Reynolds & Lim, 2007). Conversely, art therapy is a clinical practice conducted by qualified art therapists, for the purpose of safely addressing psychological conditions using visual and symbolic mediums (Chandler, 2020; de Witte et al., 2021; Oster et al., 2006). As cancer patients undergo intense and complex emotions, it is important that an art therapist is present, to help the patient safely navigate the thoughts and emotions evoked during the art-making process (Chandler, 2020; de Witte et al., 2021).

The overarching issues identified from this literature review include the lack of holistic support, miscommunication between healthcare professionals and patients, and mistrust of healthcare providers. These issues contribute to the prolonged impact that a cancer diagnosis has on a survivor’s quality of life. Although many articles acknowledge that art therapy can provide much-needed support for cancer patients in their cancer journey, more evidence-based research is needed to firmly establish the efficacy of art therapy in cancer treatment (Geue et al., 2010). Thus, this study aims to further explore the relationship between cancer diagnoses and art therapy in respect to improving a survivor’s long-term quality of life.

Research questions

To help organise the knowledge I had gained from literature and fieldwork, I curated my artwork that related to my cancer history (see Appendix A). This evoked memories and prompted reflection on past experiences. I was able to recall moments that I believed significantly impacted the trajectory of my life; these are described as ‘epiphanies’ by Ellis et al. (2011). Through correlation of my artwork, recurring themes in my epiphanies were identified. I used these themes to guide the development of three primary research questions, which are the focus of this study:

  • How has the cancer diagnosis impacted the quality of life of a cancer survivor?

  • How was the cancer survivor’s mental health affected by the cancer diagnosis and medical treatment?

  • In relation to post-diagnosis life, what impact does visual art, as therapy, have on the quality of life and mental health of female cancer survivors?

Methodology

Study design

The methodology employed in this single case study integrated an autoethnographic ABR framework. The term ‘autoethnography’ describes personal experience (‘auto’) to produce a representation (‘graphy’) of cultural (‘ethno’) experiences, societal expectations, and shared beliefs, values and behaviours (Adams et al., 2017). Autoethnographies humanise research by focusing on life as ‘lived through’ in its complexities, showing that you, as readers, and we, as authors, matter. It also shows to other individuals, involved in or implicated by our projects, that they matter too (Adams et al., 2017). This methodological approach provided a framework that guided the selection criteria, data collection, data analysis and discussion.

Searching for a participant

In an ethnography, researchers gain insight from interviewing and observing cultural community members. The researchers then use these interactions to help guide their writing (Adams et al., 2017). Similarly, in autobiographies, researchers converse with other individuals to help evoke and reflect on past experiences (Adams et al., 2017). As this study applied an autoethnographic approach, it allowed me to work alongside the participant to explore and elicit past thoughts and feelings, while also gaining insight from someone who has similar lived experiences (McNiff, 2011; Rieger et al, 2021).

Prior to the commencement of participant recruitment, ethical approval was obtained from the Murdoch University Ethics Committee (Ethics approval # 2022/095). I aimed to recruit one participant through public methods, including snowball sampling and third-party agencies. A study-participant recruitment flyer was emailed to two agencies, Solaris and the Cancer Council. The flyer detailed the study’s purpose and the participant selection criteria. Through snowball sampling, one expression of interest was received from a friend of a friend and seven expressions of interest from the Cancer Council.

The criteria for inclusion were women over the age of 18, with a history of cancer, who were not currently undergoing physical cancer treatments and who had engaged in arts-based practice. Participants were excluded if they did not consent to having interviews audio or visually recorded.

Out of the eight expressions of interest, only one fulfilled all selection criteria. This participant viewed the research flyer advertised in the Cancer Council Newsletter. An invitation to participate was emailed to the participant, detailing the nature of the study, their rights as a voluntary participant and the potential risks associated with their participation in the study. The selected participant was a 69-year-old single female, who did not have children. She had experienced two separate diagnoses of breast cancer, with her first experience occurring 26 years ago in her right breast and the second in her left breast. Her breast cancer therapy was concluded in 2022. The participant has engaged in the arts, specifically drawing, journaling, drama and public speaking, and is a published author.

Interview process

All interviews, including artmaking, were performed in accordance with the Murdoch University’s code of ethics and current professional standards of practice. The participant gave informed written consent for audio and visual recordings and photography, and deidentified publication of research outcomes.

Data was derived from three one-hour in-person video/audio-recorded interviews, incorporating discussion and creative expression. All interviews were conducted in a small and quiet room, with the participant and me sitting next to each other and the materials laid out in front of us. Each interview began with a question and three follow-up sub-questions (see Appendix B). The participant was then asked to discuss her experiences relating to the impact of her cancer diagnosis while engaging in art-making (drawing, painting and/or collage). As the participant declined to use collaging, stating she “was not a crafty person”, only drawings and paintings were completed. After she completed her image in a session, I asked follow-up questions derived from Knill’s aesthetic analysis process (Knill et al., 2005) (Appendix C). This entails focusing on the participant’s process of image-making, the emotional experience of the creative process and the participant’s interpretation of the content of her image.

After every interview, I used response art as a creative process for self-reflection. Response art is the practice of creating artwork in response to client interactions within the clinical context (Nash, 2019). I explored and reflected on my impression of the participant’s narrative, as it evoked emotions I had experienced after my diagnosis and treatment. Furthermore, this process aided in the development of themes that I then used in the data analysis.

Interview transcription

During the interview and art-making process, the participant was observed and recorded to generate a deidentified transcript. All four artworks created by the participant and three artworks created by me were incorporated into the transcription process. All three transcripts were included in the data analysis. NVivo (v12) was used to code more than 30,000 words and seven images. Data saturation occurred by the third transcription. At this point, no new information was generated by the additional data (Morse, 1995).

Emerging themes with many layers

Initially, eight interchangeable themes were identified. It was difficult to allocate a name to each overarching theme, due to the multiple layers of information and the connections between all the codes. Two creative processes (see Appendix D) were used to embody the data, which provided a new perspective on pattern recognition, categories and their relationships (Braun & Clarke, 2013).

Two overarching themes, Information and Change, emerged (see Figure 1). These themes were structured both laterally and hierarchically, indicating the relationship between them (Braun & Clarke, 2013). The key subthemes were grouped, and codes were categorised (see Appendix E).

Figure 1. The relationship between emerged themes.

Information and Change

The Information theme included three sub-themes: Response, Physical and Safety.

Response referred to a reaction to information. Decisions and Treatment were sub-themes of Response. The participant’s medical and surgical team provided her with information related to her breast cancer diagnosis and treatment. She was required to make life decisions based on this information. However, she questioned the accuracy of the information. The outcome of her decisions affected her future. These decisions impacted her ability to manage physically, mentally and financially.

Physical referred to the identified and incorporated impacts on the body, body-image, self-image, mental health, safety, religion, further medical support, memory, income capacity, art, art-based research, and home life.

Safety encompassed the participant’s responses to her diagnosis, lack of trust in the medical team, psychological and emotional impacts/triggers, physical fitness, pain and religion.

Change referred to impacts related to the participant’s body, image, quality of life, career, future, family connections and mental health.

Interview One: Making sense of it all

Interview One explored the participant’s experience of receiving a cancer diagnosis. Confusion, decisions, treatment, physical fitness and pain emerged as the major themes of this interview.

During the interview, the participant stated that she found it difficult to trust others easily. “Part of it was that I knew that I just had to hand over and trust that they knew what they were doing, which I did to a certain degree.” Expanding on this, the participant stated:

I had an awful first experience with a surgeon who butchered me and I had to get to hospital to fix up the injury… that was the worst.

The participant identified herself as neurodiverse, with an inquiring mind and a strong sense of curiosity. She was an avid researcher and found information on many topics interesting. Throughout the participant’s life, important decisions were required to be made related to her cancer diagnosis.

That kept me from sitting in a chair and screaming with panic because… I was gonna lose both breasts as well, but I was making the decisions along here as well. What we’re gonna do? So of course, I was reading more than any human has ever read about.

Her research was crucial to her understanding of the advice and information obtained from her surgical and medical team. This information influenced her decisions and life choices. Her reaction to her second cancer diagnosis was a “fight–flight response”.

But then when they just started talking “mastectomy”, it was the classic. I literally didn’t hear a word. I couldn’t hear a thing… all I know is that when they were talking to me I just want[ed] to say “shut up”… but I was polite, nice, acceptance.

Her attempts to make sense of information resulted in confusion and intermittent anger. Despite her resilience, her experiences from 26 years prior had left an imprint of distrust of the medical system in the participant’s mind. “I feel like [I] didn’t have enough information and that was very frustrating for me because I wanted to be physically active, mentally involved in my healing … I don’t know, there was so much confusion.” As treatment decisions had to be made within a limited timeframe, she reported not feeling heard, not being seen as an individual, and not being acknowledged as an expert on her own body and mind.

What am I going to do?… What is it? What? What decision was I going to make was the issue. What?… It looked like removing both breasts was the thing to do. So that’s what I did.

Unfortunately, her second experience was not dissimilar. Further misdiagnoses, surgical errors and miscommunication contributed to the participant’s mistrust of the medical profession.

I didn’t feel safe. So I went to Women’s Health Care House, and they said, “you have a right to ask these questions”. So they helped me formulate some questions, [and] I went back to him, and… I said, “I’d like to ask some questions, please”. He said… “go ahead”. [Participant then mimics the actions of the specialist and turns the chair around to give her back to me whilst reading a brochure.]

The participant explored her sense of confusion in her first image. She titled her creative response Confusion (Figure 2), “yeah, that’s a good word. Confusion. I’ll put that at the top… lots of confusion… And I think, yeah I’m just confused… And I’m still confused… confusion still sits as the title.”

Figure 2. Participant, Confusion, 2022, coloured and lead pencil on paper, 297 × 420mm.

The word ‘sanguine’ was intermittently used by the participant and she reported lifelong optimism toward her prognosis.

[Another] image I have is with me sitting in a big solid chair, holding my arms and just going for the ride to the road. So when I get those sensations I know it’s time to start scanning to see what’s going on, and I knew with this diagnosis that I was quite sanguine about it, I kept thinking I’ve known for 26 years this was a possibility. Here it is. Isn’t it fantastic that I’ve kept it at bay for 26 years by managing my health?

On review of the audio-visual recordings, the participant was observed to express contradictory emotions. I used drawing to respond to the apparent disconnection between verbal expression and visual expression.

Figure 3. (left to right) Michaela Psaila-Savona, Figure A: Sanguine, 2022, pastel crayons on paper, 297 × 420mm; Figure B: Pain, 2022, pastel crayons on paper, 297 × 420mm.

Interview Two: Overwhelming sadness

Being physically fit was central to the participant’s discussion within each interview. Her physical fitness was significantly important to her self-image. She was proud of her physique and strength, and her lifestyle involved various careers and physical activities.

The participant experienced overwhelming sadness between the first and second interviews. Due to this emotion, her religious and family upbringing and complex trauma history were brought into the discussion. The participant disclosed previous mental health history, significant emotion and complex trauma.

I knew I needed to do something quickly. I knew that I was in a very bad psychological set, not so much from the cancer… This is a lot of pain. I’ve forgotten about that, it’s the same sadness that I felt when my sister died, because I remember my chest. Argh [clutching chest]… I experienced domestic violence in relationships when I was in my 20s. And one of the things that happens is I’m not physically fit. I start having nightmares of being attacked and being unable to run away or to fight back. But when I’m physically strong and fit, those dreams just dissipate and they’re not around.

As a follow-up to her statement, I asked, “So your fitness is really integral?” The participant replied, “It’s integral to, yes, my safety, mentally, physically and emotionally”. Safety was identified in the data infrequently. However, the relationship between safety and the requirement to sustain physical fitness made it salient. The participant’s religious, family and trauma background exposed an impact on her decision-making abilities. Triggers related to experiences unrelated to her cancer diagnoses increased her trauma response in her current situation.

The participant’s decision-making abilities were expressed in her second art piece (Figure 4). The future is indicated by multiple question marks. There are worries, as well as failures and accomplishments. Numerous options exist, but they are all ambiguous. Her choice of options includes home improvement, art and bodybuilding. She was 69 years old and believed she had another 20 years to live. However, she was confused as to what to do in those 20 years.

And in the future and that’s my sense of just what the hell [will] I spend possibly hours a day looking and thinking. What am I gonna do with the next 20 years?… It’s the void. It’s the sense of what the hell am I gonna do with my life? Because I’m such a busy person.

Figure 4. Participant, The Void, 2022, lead pencil on paper, 297 × 420mm.

My creative response (Figure 5) explored the impact of the word ‘void’. ‘Void’ is shown in black, ‘body image’ is shown in blue and ‘pain’ is shown centrally in red. Multiple hands are seen to try to conceal the pain the participant experienced.

Figure 5. Michaela Psaila-Savona, The Pain, 2022, paper collage, 297 × 420mm.

Interview Three: Revelations

The participant took great pride in her artwork. She associated her mental change from the first interview to attending the ABR interviews. The two final images (Figures 6 and 7) were done at home after her second interview.

I went away feeling really strongly motivated. And then it’s like this boom, boom, boom. And suddenly I’ve stopped my car on the side of the road and [I’m] taking photographs. I’m just motivated and I’m seeing. I’m seeing.

In Figure 6, the participant associated the metaphor of drawing herself and “whitening herself out” with her breast cancer experience. Despite this ingrained experience, she still could stand with pride, yelling, “I’m still going on basically, you bastards you know, I’m still going on. I’ve made it.”

Figure 6. Participant, Still going on. I made it!, 2022, lead pencil, watercolour and whiteout on paper, 297 × 210mm.

The yellow star was high, bright and within reach. The participant stated that this was a metaphor for her future. This too was whited out, which represented her confusion in focusing on a career choice. In the image, she stands on high ground. The blackness below her is referred to as “the yuck” that is spread over her lifetime and is still current. Despite the “black yuck”, she is still moving forward.

The participant’s final drawing depicts herself standing on a huge precipice, holding a large fishing net, and trying to grab a question mark (Figure 7). The question marks represent her multiple career options.

Figure 7. Participant, So many questions, 2022, lead pencil and watercolour on paper, 297 x 210mm.

Whiteout again was used to erase doubt (question marks). She included backward question marks and an arrow to indicate an upside-down question mark, which added to her confusion. Eventually, the participant reported that a question mark had been caught, and their chosen option was to pursue art. Metaphorically, the question mark transformed into an answer, which helped guide her decision on what direction her life should take.

The participant was full of excitement while discussing these images. She reported a sense of increased energy and motivation. She referred to this as having a “it’s almost like [it] opened up a part of my brain that’s been dormant for, like, literally 55 [years], half a century”.

Discussion

Through my research, I identified commonalities between the participant’s experiences and my lived experiences. The participant and I required timeframes to determine how long we might be unwell, to allow us to feel organised, in control and at ease. However, I questioned whether the data was specific to the participant’s neurodiversity and complex trauma history. Her neurodiverse needs required further consideration and sensitivity, which the medical profession did not seem to consider or identify. To make decisions about her body, health and life, she required information to be delivered in a way that made sense to her. When processing the information, confusion and physical impacts resulted, as seen in her first image. When given a cancer diagnosis, and facing many months of surgery and treatment, consistent timeframes and accurate information were crucial for her mental stability. This made me question whether our experiences would have been different if, at the time of our diagnoses, doctors had conducted a brief mental health history, and suggested having a family member or friend present for added support and guidance?

As a result of the information provided, the participant experienced memory loss and her fight-or-flight response was triggered. These reactions were also experienced by me when I was confronted with information by my medical professionals. As the fight-or-flight response is a common reaction when given this type of information, it is important that a trusting doctor–patient relationship is established (Gilbert et al., 2016; Krishnasamy et al., 2023). However, for the participant and myself, the lack of timeframes and unclear information caused mistrust. Both the participant and I have experienced inaccurate cancer diagnoses and misplaced medical results. Consistent with the miscommunication issues noted by Furzer et al. (2014), miscommunication worsened the participant’s anxiety and triggered her past traumas and fears about current treatment decisions. Furthermore, the participant referred to her presentation as “all over the place.” Could this behaviour be due to feeling unheard and unable to have a voice? As mentioned by Chansky (2007), the historical suppression of female voices has led to women struggling to find their own agency and lacking the confidence to vocalise concerns based on their lived experiences. If the participant had other ways of expressing her voice, such as visual art, would she still have felt unheard?

Due to time constraints, medical and surgical teams typically use direct speech to relay information to patients (Gilbert et al., 2016; Ong et al., 2024). Ong et al. (2024) found that when doctors employed art-making practices in their approach, patients received more empathetic care. However, by increasing time spent with some patients, doctors experienced increased anxiety and guilt about neglecting other patients. So is alternative information delivery a realistic and reasonable expectation?

In cancer research, breast cancer is generally viewed as a female-specific disease, with males representing less than 1% of breast cancer cases worldwide (Ly et al., 2013). A study by Hall et al. (1994) noted that female doctors were more supportive and communicative with female clients when compared to female doctors with male clients. The need for female support was also experienced by this study’s participant, as she sought aid from a women’s health clinic to clarify information provided to her by male doctors. Through the sharing of information in a female-orientated environment, the participant felt safe to discuss her illness and suffering, and obtain emotional support (Gilbert et al., 2016). Therefore, the prior miscommunication problems and lack of support experienced by the participant might have been reduced or eradicated if the participant’s doctors had been female instead of male. This made me ponder, would a female doctor also have been more beneficial in my cancer journey than a male doctor?

Both the participant and I maintained a high level of physical activity, which was identified as an outlet for expression. It calmed our thoughts and suppressed a wide range of emotions that were internalised for years. The participant used physical means to maintain control and safety. Similarly, Dehghan et al. (2022), identified exercise as an ‘agency-seeking strategy’, with cancer patients utilising exercise to regain control and show others they were still alive. Physical activity also had religious implications for the participant. As a result of religious maltreatment by nuns, the participant, as a child, would walk endlessly. At an early age, she discovered that walking and activity instilled a sense of relaxation and she “was able to lose track of time”. The connection between physical fitness and safety triggered memories. This has led the participant to exercise profusely and seek out physical activities, including home renovations, in her adult life, to maintain safety.

The participant and I were both raised as strict Catholics, and a distinct similarity in our religious upbringing styles was identified. As discussed in Dehghan et al. (2022), external factors, including our religious values and attitudes, impacted both the participant’s and my self-belief. We both experienced depressive symptoms, negative affect, and a reduction in self-esteem because of religious coping styles (Park et al., 2018). However, there were variances within these beliefs. The participant questioned:

Heaven’s reward – I’ve done all the right things and I’m not being rewarded with my aim, which is not to have cancer. It’s t that flawed thinking, that model… it’s like, where’s my reward? I’ve been good… Why am I being punished?

The participant’s comments made me internally question whether I must have been bad and deserved the punishment.

Body image is very important to the participant’s sense of well-being, including having to remain physically fit to feel safe. She did not want to spend a moment without breasts and made a quick decision for a mastectomy and reconstruction to occur. The loss of her breasts was secondary to her sense of symmetry. She related symmetry to feelings of ease, safety and protection.

The participant suppressed emotion throughout her life, potentially due to unsupportive relationships (including the medical teams) and to maintain a sense of control, in case of a “rollercoaster” occurring. The change in control over her career, income, body image and physical fitness due to the cancer diagnosis impacted her quality of life and prospects. The participant had a small support network and a strained relationship with her family. She had never married and did not have children, which was the opposite of my social situation. These differences were viewed as significant, as the participant sought support from a friend who had had a similar experience, and from a women’s health agency. These similarities and differences identified the need for connections, whether these were reliance on another individual who had had a similar experience, engaging in physical activity, through creative expression, or making connections with oneself. She and I both felt these connections reduced the psychological impact after a cancer diagnosis.

Due to a shared history of complex trauma, both the participant and I found various therapies and art beneficial. I used art-based expression to cope with the impacts of my diagnosis. The participant used alternative forms of creative expression, such as publishing a book, and public speaking, which she referred to as akin to a performance.

Conclusion

The participant and I each identify as a daughter, aunt, friend and scholar. In addition, I also identify as a mother and researcher. A cancer diagnosis appears to significantly impact one’s quality of life; the impacts of a diagnosis don’t just go away when or if the cancer does, or when treatment finishes. One-year post-diagnosis, and even though treatment is finished, the participant continues to experience impacts on her career and future. I know I do, too.

Delivering information effectively to cancer survivors over the course of their lives is crucial for their mental health, stability and recovery. Clients with a history of complex trauma may require additional assistance. Life experiences prior to diagnosis, such as complex trauma or autism, may affect behaviour and information processing during the diagnosis and treatment period, and affect recovery. As shown in this study, past trauma was re-triggered by diagnosis and treatment, impacting on the participant’s ongoing mental health, and shaping her relationship with the medical treatment teams. In this study, unexpected findings regarding the delivery of information to neurodiverse individuals emerged, along with a need for greater compassion towards neurodivergent medical patients.

The use of various therapies and the impact of creative expression were interpreted as beneficial to the participant’s future. The participant described the benefits of the ABR methods used in the study as enabling her to identify the source of her unresolved pain, and  motivating her to seek career options for her future. She said her image-making allowed her to find a voice to express the impacts of her cancer experiences, and described her connection with art therapy techniques as “life-giving”, including the use of metaphors to express herself. As noted in Adams et al. (2017), she felt able to share vulnerable moments of confusion and pain, and articulate past traumas and future goals.

Looking to the future

This study is relevant to art therapy practices, specifically in the overlapping domains of cancer, trauma and neurodiversity. It demonstrates creative arts therapists need to be mindful of how a cancer diagnosis or any disease impacts an individual’s processing capabilities and self-efficacy. It is especially important for neurodiverse individuals to obtain support to ensure they find their pathway through the various phases of life with cancer and its impacts. Greater awareness of the delivery and reception of information may aid in better communication between creative arts therapists and their clients and health professionals involved in this field. The research highlights the need for greater awareness about supporting cancer survivors to find connections between information and change, mind and body, and releasing suppressed fears and pain.

Sharing our stories here may also help other cancer survivors to have similar experiences, and to reiterate the words of the participant: “We got this, you bastards!”

Acknowledgements

I’d like to acknowledge my academic supervisor Dr Rose Williams for her contributions to this research project during the completion of my Master of Creative Arts Therapies. I’d like to also thank my amazing daughter for being so supportive, and always providing honest and constructive feedback.

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Appendices

Appendix A: My curated artwork

Appendix B: Interview questions

Questions and sub-questions

Interview One

  1. What was your first initial experience of being given a cancer diagnosis like?
    a. For example, how old were you? Where were you?
    b. What came up for you when you were talking about your experience?

  2. To what extent has your cancer diagnosis impacted on your life?
    a. Can you tell me about that?
    b. Did you create art during this period? 

  3. I would like you to create an artwork to depict this experience. (Aesthetic analysis to explore the participant’s artwork/image made during this interview. See below for outline.)

Interview Two

  1. How did you find the previous interview?
    a. Did anything come up for you after the last interview?
    b. If yes, can you tell me about it?

  2. How did your cancer diagnosis experience impact your mental health throughout your life?
    a. Can you explain how it impacted you?
    b. What words could you use to describe the experience?
    c. How has this experience changed/stayed the same over time?
    d. Did you create art during this period?

  3. I would like you to create an artwork to depict this experience. (Aesthetic analysis to explore the participant’s artwork/image made during this interview.)

Interview Three

  1. Is there anything you would like to add that you did not include in your first or second interview?

  2. You have lived a long time with a cancer diagnosis. Did your cancer diagnosis experience impact the way you lived?
    a. How did it impact?
    b. What did it impact?
    c. When did it impact?

  3. I would like you to create an artwork to depict this experience.

  4. Looking at the images you have made and reflecting on what we have spoken about together in the first two interviews, what is emerging for you? (Aesthetic analysis to explore the participant’s artwork/image made during this interview.)

Appendix C: Knill’s aesthetic analysis process (Knill et al., 2005)

The bridge of encounter; looking at the presented work.

  1. The surface of the work
    • What do you notice about the characteristics and qualities of your artwork in relation to structure/composition/formation of the artwork/image?
    • What do you notice about the placement of significant aspects of the image, relationship of size, clarity of image, quality of your mark making, language and expression?

  2. The process of shaping
    • Can you tell me about your experience of making your artwork/image?
    • What did you try out?
    • What worked?
    • What did not work?
    • Did you have an idea of what to do at the beginning? If so, how did this change?

  3. The experience of doing it
    • What happened emotionally during the making of your artwork/image?
    • Did you feel emotionally different from the beginning to the end of the creative process?
    • Did you find any aspects of the making difficult or unexpected?
    • What did you find distracting and how did you overcome it?
    • Is there anything in your work you find unusual?

  4. What does the work say? How is it significant?
    • If your artwork/image was to speak to you, what would it say?
    • What would you say to it?

Appendix D: Creative processing

Appendix E: Themes and codes that emerged from participant’s interviews